One of my friends while going through my vague ramblings on the blog page marveled at my audacity to comment on LIFE!!!
His argument was that at 22 (age) i barely knew anything about LIFE and its subjects, leave alone interpreting and writing something on the same.
His opinion was well respected though not entirely accepted!!!
My counter in defense was that at times it would take ages for one to realize the true meaning of life, while on the other hand certain extraordinary instances, prodigious moments and momentary encounters would set rich, educative and eventful precedence’s for one to find more versions and interpretations of life.
These educative examinations often would not last long, infact, at times would barely last for minutes together leaving a stinging effect, lasting memories and an educative impact on YOU.
My conclusion in this case remains that you wouldn’t have to really grow OLD to learn about LIFE. You actually have to live every moment of life wholeheartedly to learn something from each one of it!!!!
I am not too sure whether my answer was quite convincing, not that his (my friend) allegiance towards my thoughts bother me, however, his remarks did prompt me to do a small introspection.
Upon this self investigation i realized that at some point of time, a reader while going through an authored writing creates an interpretation of the text that he/she has read and in the process also cultivates an image of the AUTHOR (based on his/her interpretations).
Parallel to the same context, my blog did make a very serious reading, austere, sober and heavy thoughts filled with superlative adjectives from the keyboard of a 22 year old boy did not quite create the image that my actual self depicts!!
Of course those thoughts penned in the past were a little determined and at times also wore a funeralistic flavor to themselves, however i need to make a strong confession that my character possess more attributes and my thoughts appreciate different dimensions. I am not exactly what my writings depict. They are just one of my belongings, I DO HAVE A FLIP SIDE!!!!
Just to explain, i do enjoy the company of people, i watch movies every weekend (almost!!!), i cry when India loses in Cricket and i take great pride in being a part of the bustling and cacophonic human civilization!!!! It is just that when i am indulging myself in the finer things associated with life, i am too busy, too occupied and too involved to document the same.
Times spent with my friends doing the most insane things ever, venturing on adventurous trips at unplanned and uncanny times to crazy, dangerous and isolated locations, fantasizing on the elixirs of our life, celebrating each others successes, agonizing empathetically over the others failures, arguing and vociferously debating in classes, rebutting each other in the playground and living life and every single moment of the same caring for each other in unison is far from being explainable!!!
These are times when I have found myself to be too attached to life and in the process couldn’t think of doing anything but to relish and savor the spice associated with it.
The notoriety, the sarcasm, the pranks, the spoofs and the frivolous escapades exist in abundance and are very much my way of societal existing. I cannot think of living a grave, serious and a hibernating life far away from the madding crowd.
However, I need to make a sound declaration here; my moments of pleasure shall not deserve any blog space!!!!
I am too busy when I am happy and Blogging obviously is such a waste of time!!!!
I hope my friend soon realizes that “Bloggin is the art of the sedate and the stern poker faced man, Euphoria and Pleasure would be a total misfit in this TRIBE”!!!
Monday, August 20, 2007
Tuesday, August 7, 2007
DIAGNOSING DREAMS AND RATIONALIZING AMBITIONS!!
Over the years, blame it on my upbringing or attribute it to the interpretations of my learning’s from Life, I have been by nature eternally demanding, zealous, and ambitious.
The irony however remains that though life did teach me how to dream, DREAM BIG, but in its attempt to teach me the means to realize the same - it failed!!!
With the kind of optimism that I bring in with myself, a man needs to be bitterly adamant, strictly stubborn, vehemently hardworking and purposefully industrious.
Alas, I acquaint with myself no such etymology!!!!
Now that I write all this, an even more appalling confession that I must make is despite knowing all this; my Dreams refuse to wade off!!
In fact they in-evidently haunt me and egoistically tease me with their unconquerable presence, embarrassingly reminding me of the standards that I need to arise and meet in life.
These reminders are uncalled for but unfortunately they are perennial, albeit uninvited but they do exist and they shall continue to do so till I stay alive!!!!!
I highlight this point now because the time now stands ripe before me to transform these groomed desires and ambitions into reality. Given that I have found an occupation for myself (arguably the best that I could manage!!) and am earning my money, all that I had wanted and had craved for in life had to materialize right before me.
The understanding that currency was the sole medium to all extravagancies was long imbibed within me and parallel to the same thought I have fought my way through to have found a job that is reasonably rewarding enabling me to earn all the money that I can.
Still, the Dreams stay alive unconquered and untarnished!!!
While I expressed this botheration to my father, (my best mate and my financier to date!!!) his explanation was equally eerie!! He questioned my Dreams and teased my ambitions terming them to be quixotic, romantic and unrealistic!!
Though he has never questioned my prodigy and I have always marveled at his encouragement through out all walks of my life, I still do not quite accept that whatever I have dreamt is beyond my capacity!!! For all the arguments that we have had recently, he demanded that I add a tinge of prudence to my materialistic expectations from life.
After a careful examination though, I have allowed my prudence to be pitted against my emotions (confess- with a bias towards the latter) to arrive at this forgone conclusion that rationalizing my ambitions would be terming myself to be a failure and conclusively compromise my sole purpose of existence.
At no point of time would the crave for extravagance die in me and at no point of time would I accommodate some kind of a bargained low profile settlement with life. Though I do agree that the Ambitions are way too away for my hands to grab and pocket them, but that aint deters me from increasing my capacity.
I shall strive at full capacity for that plush duplex bungalow, that classy car, that casual overnight vacation to ‘Hawaii’ with family!!
I know that I am being unrealistically demanding but the desire for these exorbitances shall keep me going. Not achieving them would mean that I d be declared as a failure but to desert them midway and quit would declare abandonment and signal a defeated self renunciation causing grave indignation.
Hence rationalizing my ambitions stays out of question, they stay alive and in the process keep my purpose of living life very much in contention !!!!
Signing off!!
P.S – Of course, me and my father still need to come to an understanding!!!
The irony however remains that though life did teach me how to dream, DREAM BIG, but in its attempt to teach me the means to realize the same - it failed!!!
With the kind of optimism that I bring in with myself, a man needs to be bitterly adamant, strictly stubborn, vehemently hardworking and purposefully industrious.
Alas, I acquaint with myself no such etymology!!!!
Now that I write all this, an even more appalling confession that I must make is despite knowing all this; my Dreams refuse to wade off!!
In fact they in-evidently haunt me and egoistically tease me with their unconquerable presence, embarrassingly reminding me of the standards that I need to arise and meet in life.
These reminders are uncalled for but unfortunately they are perennial, albeit uninvited but they do exist and they shall continue to do so till I stay alive!!!!!
I highlight this point now because the time now stands ripe before me to transform these groomed desires and ambitions into reality. Given that I have found an occupation for myself (arguably the best that I could manage!!) and am earning my money, all that I had wanted and had craved for in life had to materialize right before me.
The understanding that currency was the sole medium to all extravagancies was long imbibed within me and parallel to the same thought I have fought my way through to have found a job that is reasonably rewarding enabling me to earn all the money that I can.
Still, the Dreams stay alive unconquered and untarnished!!!
While I expressed this botheration to my father, (my best mate and my financier to date!!!) his explanation was equally eerie!! He questioned my Dreams and teased my ambitions terming them to be quixotic, romantic and unrealistic!!
Though he has never questioned my prodigy and I have always marveled at his encouragement through out all walks of my life, I still do not quite accept that whatever I have dreamt is beyond my capacity!!! For all the arguments that we have had recently, he demanded that I add a tinge of prudence to my materialistic expectations from life.
After a careful examination though, I have allowed my prudence to be pitted against my emotions (confess- with a bias towards the latter) to arrive at this forgone conclusion that rationalizing my ambitions would be terming myself to be a failure and conclusively compromise my sole purpose of existence.
At no point of time would the crave for extravagance die in me and at no point of time would I accommodate some kind of a bargained low profile settlement with life. Though I do agree that the Ambitions are way too away for my hands to grab and pocket them, but that aint deters me from increasing my capacity.
I shall strive at full capacity for that plush duplex bungalow, that classy car, that casual overnight vacation to ‘Hawaii’ with family!!
I know that I am being unrealistically demanding but the desire for these exorbitances shall keep me going. Not achieving them would mean that I d be declared as a failure but to desert them midway and quit would declare abandonment and signal a defeated self renunciation causing grave indignation.
Hence rationalizing my ambitions stays out of question, they stay alive and in the process keep my purpose of living life very much in contention !!!!
Signing off!!
P.S – Of course, me and my father still need to come to an understanding!!!
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