Articulating employment!!!!

Before i pen down my new found thoughts, i need to make a confession!!!!
my father often used to say that "discipline as a quality, cannot be inherited, it needs to be inculcated" ...How i wish the adage could be proved wrong.

This business of inculcating the damned trait has been far more difficult, not to mention that it aint exciting either!!!

unfortunately, the indiscplined part of me has also had a spillover to conquer and devastate the regularity of blogging...

however, i confess in unmatched despair and seek allegiance for the irregularity showcased.
In explanation i can only say that i was busy trying to prove my fathers theory wrong and was hoping that somehow i shall be able to inherit some qualities from him!!
alas, he was right (as he is mostly) and what a pity, my attempts failed!!
carrying on with things that have transformed (in life), i have finished my education. the post graduation turned out to be a pleasure in contrast to the ordeal which i expected it to be (as my previous blogs state!!).

and now i have become a part of a company which uncannily implements software products developed by other companies (after toiling their blood and sweat) and in the process makes money.

since i am not a guy with a lot of fascination towards technology, to make myself understand my employers business model, i sought for a simpler explanation - my company acts as the tailor while the vendors manufacture the fabrics!!!

the very experience of venturing into corporate life overwhelmed me. Suddenly my place of occupation was called a multinational corporation, messes became food courts, desks became cubicles (if you were occupied, if u werent they were called benches!!) and attendance roll calls needed to be electronically swipped!!!!

the room was air conditioned (and if one was just wondering as to y it wouldn be effective, techies would attribute it to the new found climate control technology), taps would refused to flush out water if it werent censored and stairs would consider themselves insulted if u would bypass the capsule elevator and stamp ur feet on them to make ur way up the floors!!!
my employer definitely was posh!!!

he knew the art of living life extravagantly!! he also knew the art of communicating his extravagance explicitly and didnt he do it in style...

i have always been a man who has craved for extravagance!!

but i have also had equal prominence for exclusivity.

my employer's unmatched precedence towards extravagance was deeply appreciated but his unmatched generosity and expansive scale (includes size) was uncalled for and discomforting!!!!
the employer was gratitious enough to accomodate 70,000 people like me..
which meant that i was no different!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

there were 69,999 people who had equitable rights and were all waiting with their jaws bare open and tounge smleting out to grab and gobble all the offerings presented to them.

This vast populated mass of mankind meant that i was lost somewhere, i barely had a unique identity, i barely existed. my employer would unfortunately never get to know me, and noticably he was too big, sitting pretty on top of a barricade of heirarchies while i was left alone suffocating, dumped amongst this "sea of humanity"!!!!

To massage my ego and satisfy my prudence amongst this crowd would call for a challange. arguably the biggest of my life so far!!!

to not to accept the same, shall be heartbraking (though i must confess it does scare me)....but compulsions of life shall keep me going, undettered and i shall take strength from my ambitions to stamp some authority and create a small space amongst this vastness of mankind.

my brother (my hero!!) often says that corporate life is a jungle, where everyone is on the hunt to catch their prey.....I now should learn the art of swaying away from being the hunted. guess a stroke of discipline should enable that, its high time i learn to inculcate it!! (i have learnt my lessons, havent i)

signing off!!!